why does my heart have to hurt so much? why? i dont know what to do. I always get hurt and I dont think I can take it anymore. Does it really have to hurt this much? the pain is unreal that i can’t even feel anything anymore. nothing comes into my brain, nothing. nothing. i want to cut myself.
too much people have been saying I lost a super lot of weight and asking if I still eat…
I just want to say… jayyyzzzzzzuuss. it’s a big NO. I haven’t lost any weight at all, in fact, I feel like I gained a lot of weight these past few months. Yes, I still eat. If people only know how much I eat in one meal they’d vomit. It’s quite unthinkable for a girl to eat like I do and it’s miles away from lady-like. I eat a lot + dessert. I spend all of my money on desserts. I eat a lot of desserts. different kinds of desserts. I don’t care what kind; fruits, cakes, ice creams, bread, cereals etc. but seriously. I eat a lot. I even eat breakfast for dinner.
Anonymous asked: why did u have puffy eyes in school 2day?
well, I’ve been crying myself to sleep these past few nights. just because I don’t really know why. I’m just scared of something.. really. I really want to stop thinking about sad things but I can’t really help it, I’ve became too sensitive about some things that goes on.
-today was pretty good though! ^^
I don’t even know anymore -.- K. #eyebags #darkcirlcles #k #ugly forever…. #fat #fat #fat #dying
andeey-12 asked: bakit nakakainis ka? dami mo din nakiss na lalaki eh :)
I don’t know. I’m born annoying. Sorry.
and no, kapal ng mukha mo hndi madami ah. CHE!
Yung lalaking ipaparamdam niya sayo na mahal na mahal ka niya at hindi ka niya bibigyan ng dahilan para makapag-isip na hindi ka na niya mahal. Hindi ka niya bibigyan ng dahilan para makaramdam ng selos sa isang babae. Hindi ka man niya sabihan minu-minuto o oras-oras ng ‘mahal kita’ o ‘iloveyou’ pero ramdam na ramdam mo yun sa kanya. Yung lalaking ma-effort. Yung lalaking lagi kang papasayahin kahit sa simpleng bagay lang.
Yung pinaparamdam niya sayo na ‘wala na siyang ibang hihilingin pa dahil ikaw lang solve na solve na siya’. Yung kahit na naiinggit ka sa ibang mga magaganda na nakikita mo pero para sa kanya, mas maganda ka sa lahat ng mga iyon. Yung ramdam na ramdam mo na ang ganda-ganda mo palagi dahil sa kanya.
Hihintayin ko talaga yung lalaking ipaparamdam ito sakin.
I’m so forever alone.
I hate it when there’s too much cake in the house ㅠㅠ
screw you Butler’s !>.<! Y U MAKE SUCH GOOD CAKES? making me fat eyyyy ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ I eat so much food ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
I talk to my self.
I literally talk to myself, I ask myself questions. Nonsense questions to be quite honest. Questions I can’t even answer and I sometimes hurt my own head with my own questions -.- sometimes I weird myself out and also sometimes, I talk to the air. I think people call it talking to themselves but it’s really like talking to the air; talking to nothingness. I feel good when I talk to nothing (or no one), that way I can be in my own world. Trust me, it’s awesome. It’s like you can manipulate the things that goes to your head. Ask questions or say something, and you can decide on what you want to hear. Rant, and no one’s there to judge or give hate. Some people nowadays can be a little bit mean.
But sometimes having no one to talk to sucks. so bad. It just feels so sad and lonely and sometimes I just want to jump off a bridge or maybe take a walk on the clouds.